..tQ 4 MaKe Me SaD.. :)

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

..eXaM..? HaDui..! gejala-gejala student nak amek exam..!

1. Membaca tanpa menghiraukan sekeliling. Yang kepoh jadi pendiam. (orang masuk keluar bilik pun tak perasan, kalau orang tanya pun muka pandang nota je, jawab pon nak tak nak. Kalau jalan.jalan tersepak batu tu, reaksi dia lambat sikit. Sebab otak full load )
2. Membaca dengan kadar yang cepat. (entah faham ke tak belakang kira, sebab nak jawab subjektif, hentam pon boleh, yang penting ada point nak goreng )
3. Nak turun café tu fikir 2,3 kali. Tak pun sekali sehari je. Tu pun bungkus.cepat. jimat masa makan kat bilik. Sambil makan boleh membaca apa yg patut.
4. Time nak exam baru laaa nak full semayang. Solat sunat sampai nak batal air sembahyang. Doa macam.macam. (dan.dan. tapi alhamdulillah)
5. Agak yang nak mereng tu start la nak bukak mp3 volume paling sakit telinga. Tapi time ni memang tak sakit telinga. Sebab sakit otak lebih dari sakit telinga.
6. Masa tidur pon boleh terbayang-bayang yang baca tadi(ada tu siap ambik handout letak tepi bantal. Moga-moga dapat buat daya serapan terus lagi bagus.
7. Masa borak dengan kawan pun cakap pasal pelajaran je. (ni part tak leh blah la. Time mandi pun ada yang tanya-tanya. Dahsyat.)
8. Kalau main message tu balas sikit.sikit je. Pendek pendek. Tak de mase nak fikir taip panjang.panjang.
9. Sebab nak exam duduk dalam bilik je. Mengadap handout, buku, nota.nota. (jadi beruang kutub, sampai rambut serabai pon tak perasan) selalunye merayau g bilik orang. Tak pun kluar. G main bowling lah. Tgk wayang lah. Pantang ade mase terluang.
10. Nak buang sampah pun terbawak pen. (ni kes cuak sangat ni)
11. Agak2 stok megi tu habis kot untuk orang yang gila study. Jimat masa nak turun café masak air je pastu letak megi. Nak budak pandai sikit tak makan megi. Minum milo. Makan biskut hup seng ke, nestum ke. Roti memang dah prepare dah. Suruh mmber beli.
12. Nak bukak facebook rasa tak senang gila. Perghh. Membazir.masa. (time ni memang tertekan gila. Kena berperang dengan diri sendiri nak bukak facebook, formspring,blog . Sebab laptop depan mata. Kabel/wifi kat sebelah je. Exam minggu depan. Nanti duduk depan facebook memang buku OFF9 terus.)
13. Time ni ah baru bukak buku tebal. Bukak kamus tu yang tak tahan tu. Masa lecture dulu tak faham tak de hati pulak nak bukak kamus kan. ;P
14. Asyik-asyik tengok jam je. Sampai tak cukup jam handphone, jam tangan. Tanya lagi mmber sebelah. Haihhh. Keliru sangat budak nih.
15. Stok Nescafe, kopi tongkat ali, kopi mak dara, cucu dara semua memang ade lah. Nak stay up.
16. Hah. Ni memang sure. Meja studi bersepah gila. Mana dengan highlighternya. Pen biru, hitam , merah. Kertas-kertas memang confirm bersepah punya. Agak2 ade nota yang hilang tu mula nak naik angin. Buku semua terbukak. Kalau ada buku tambahan dari library tu semua nak dibukaknya serentak. Ada tu 4,5 buku serentak bukak.
17. Masa ni lah status facebook, blog “mintak maaf. Doakan exam nanti”
18. Muka blurr je. Sebab otak dah full tank. Makan sorang-sorang pon dah tak heran. Sebab tak nak membazir mase lepak ramai-ramai. Nanti ade je bende nk borak.
19. Kalau nak cakap pon tersasul-sasul. Salah cakap. Pastu cakap benda merepek je. Muka dah la cam zombie. Cakap merepek.repek sebab otak fikit handout, nota tak baca lagi vs nak jalan-jalan. Nak borak.borak. sampai satu tahap rasa nak rebus buku dengan handout semua. lagi merepek die cakap sebenarnye, lagi banyak topic die tak cover tu.
20. Time ni jugak lah baru terfikir kenapa lah aku tak study awal2. Kan senang. Haihh. Pastu ada pulak yang buat azam untuk semester depan. Tak nak buat dah macam sem sekarang. *padahal tiap2 sem azam sama. Tak berubah gak. Tak pun menjadi semangat dia masa awal sem je. Sampai minggu ketiga dah hancusss.

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Guys and girls being “just” friends. Not always easy, and sure as hell complicated at times. But yet, its fun. There are things that you just don’t talk about with your guy friends. That’s where the girl steps in, sweet, caring, sensitive - the little angels (hah!). There’s also a certain playful element to these friendships that you just can’t have with people of the same sex.

1: The Appeaser friendship
This is when the guy is head over heals for the girl. Worships the ground she walks on. Praises her all the time. Buys her gifts for no reason. Loves to secretly smell her hair. Agrees with everything she says, and does everything in his power to see that she is happy. Now and then gets a pat on the head in return. Dreams of fathering her children - will never get farther than perhaps having to baby-sit them. Might also have aspects of a Use-and-abuse friendship.

2: Leave-you-hanging friendship
Guy sees girl. Guy thinks girl is cute. Guy becomes friends with girl. Guy tells girl his feelings for her. Girl acts surprised. Girl might say “I’m not ready for a relationship right now”. Girl conveniently forgets to mention that she doesn’t like him in that way, and never will for that matter. Girl and guy still remain friends. Guy is hoping girl will eventually fall for him, or will become “ready” for a relationship. Never happens. Girl is just happy with the attention he lavishes on her - ego boost.

3: The Missed-Chance friendship
Guy and girl are great friends. There always was a spark, the chemistry was there. For reasons unknown to them, they always held a special place in each other’s lives. No one acted upon it though, and before you know it, girl gets married. Guy is still friends with girl - thinks the world of her. Friendship grows even stronger.

4: The Relationship-that’s-not-quite-a-relationship friendship
Guy and girl think they are best friends. While in actual fact, they are in a non-physical relationship. They do everything a couple does. Go to movies together, have candle-light dinners, strolls on the beach, endless phone conversations etc, etc. But no one has admitted their feelings. Both are in denial that there is anything but a friendship going on. The rest of the world is sure they are going out. For the life of them, they can’t understand why.

5: The Use-and-abuse friendship
Guy is in love with girl. Girl knows this and loves the power she has. Takes advantage of poor guy, who is more than happy that he can be off service to her. Girl uses guy cruelly, and the best part is, she gets him to ‘volunteer’ to do things for her. How?

“I have to drop off my dirty laundry to the laundromat. But I’m so tired. I wish I didn’t have to go?” Followed by fluttering of the eyes.

Before you can say “use-and-abuse”, guy is already racing to the laundromat with your clothes.

6: The Complaint-a-friend friendship
This is where the girl only remembers the guy, when she needs to complain about something. She calls him, or meets him, simply to vent about her problems. Guy may try to slip in something about himself, but girl is too self-absorbed to realise that, and brings the topic back to her problems. Girl keeps guy in check by telling him what a great listener he is, and none of her other friends are like that. Guy gets his doggy biscuit.

7: The By-my-rules-only friendship
This friendship can be in conjunction with any of the other types of friendships. Girl will only meet guy on her terms. Girl has full rights to cancel appointments that she made herself last minute. Girl also doesn’t need to return any calls made by the guy, but guy must be available at the snap of her fingers. Guy should expect nothing, except what girl decides to offer him. Take it or leave it.

8: The cozy friendship
This is when guy and girl are great friends. They’re totally comfortable in each other’s company, and have deep respect and trust for each other. They can speak their mind, and be at ease with silence. They don’t get overly emotional, and respect each others space and time. Can talk about absolutely anything under the sun. Guy and girl don’t think of each other in a romantic way - never crosses their mind. Has the potential to become ugly if one of them does start developing feelings.

9: The Hit-and-run friendship
This is an explosive friendship. Guy and girl become friends very quickly. They spend an insane amount of time together, and really dig each other’s company. Guy thinks girl likes him, and is leading him on. Makes his move and professes his love for her. She runs like there is no tomorrow.

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